None Can Compare

I've been confused lately. Actually probably most of my life! I've spent most of my life trying to find my soul mate. The perfect match. The one man who will make my whole world right.
He doesn't exist. I know, I've lived this way. I've put all my expectations in an earthly man to make me happy and whole. It doesn't work.
Now what?
I turned to the only One I know who never disappoints.
So then if God is my best friend, my rock, my provider, the one who cares for me, then what do I need a man for? How is a husband supposed to fit in my life? I mean, God paints the sunrise and sunset for me. He makes it snow for me. He fashioned all of creation for my enjoyment! How can any earthly man compete with that?!? Seriously!
Well here's the kicker. A man can't. And he was never meant too. God was the one who was meant to hold my heart and my dreams. He is the one who I was meant to find ultimate fulfillment in!
A husband is someone you share, build & create life with. A good, happy man, who has found his worth in the love of God is someone you choose to walk alongside in life.
Not someone who will complete you. That only happens in fairy tales.

29

So today is my 29th birthday. Yeah! Happy Birthday to me!! I always get sooo excited about birthdays!
I couldn't help but wonder why everybody always wants to be 29 over and over again. People say things like, "29 and holding!" or "29 with 12 years experience."
Is it that good that they want to repeat it? Or is it so bad they want to go back and redo it? I mean why not pick 19 or maybe 16 or how 'bout 23?
BUT as I thought about it, I realized that when you are 29 you are most likely done school, started your career and/or family, and starting to get settled in who you are. Why go though the fun of doing that all over again? Although, I wouldn't mind going back to school at ALL!
At 29 you are still young enough to do stupid things, but old enough to realize which stupid things you can get away with, and those you can't.
So I guess I'll just look forward to this year with a sense of excitement, knowing that next year I can say, "29 with 1 year experience!"

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

So often I make mistakes and beat myself up for it. I spend time wondering, "How can God use me when I'm a failure, a liar, lazy, or whatever!" Or I think and act like God can't use me because I haven't been perfect enough.
I was reading about King Abijah in my Bible, now the only important things about him are:
- he was king.
- he was evil in God's sight.
- he was David's great grandson.
"But despite that, out of respect for David, his God graciously gave him a lamp, a son to follow him and keep Jerusalem secure. For David had lived an exemplary life before God all his days, not going off on his own in willful defiance of God's clear directions (except for that time with Uriah the Hittite)."
1 Kings 15:4-5
David followed hard after God and sought to please Him, except ONCE. Wow! I'm sure David, being human, lived an imperfect life before God, but only one sin is remembered and in spite of that, God still honoured David 3 and 4 generations later. That's 120 to 150 yrs later!
So maybe I don't always have it together. I fall down, I sin. But I get back up, repent, and move forward again. God doesn't disqualify me because I sin! It only makes me realize how much more I NEED Him!
I hope that my life is as pleasing to God as David's was...I wanted to be respected by God too!