Awesome

My God is so awesome! 

I just have to say it. Again. And again

He has brought me from a shy, insecure and fearful woman to this crazy for Him, my worth secure in Him, not afraid when He is by my side chick! 

My God is AWESOME! 

Did I say that already?

Ooopps. 

Let me say it again!

MY GOD IS AWESOME!

He has become my Redeemer, my Provider, my Protector, the ROCK on which I stand, my Lover, my Friend who sticks closer than a brother and my EVERYTHING.

He has freed me from bitterness and unforgiveness towards my parents for divorcing. He has walked with me through the pain, anger and depression of separating and divorcing my husband. He has restored dreams, redeemed me, and reminded me of what He has promised me. 

He has given my beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, a garment of praise instead of heaviness - planted by Him to display His glory.

He placed me in a family and church that has supported, challenged and encouraged me. I am so very thankful for them.

My God is awesome. 

Waiting...

It seems I spend my life waiting for the next BIG thing to happen. I couldn’t wait to turn 16, then 18, go to college, get married, get anywhere really. My life seems to be running from one stage to the next. Instead of enjoying where I am, I’m always wishing for the next thing. Instead of learning and growing where I was, I looked for the next thing or moment to fill my need, to satisfy the longing in my heart. Unfortunately, when those things came along I was always broken hearted and disappointed.

It’s still a struggle. I get frustrated and want to throw the towel in on life. I get frustrated because I’m not financially where I want to be, and I figured I’d have a few kids and a good man to walk through life with by now. So many dreams and plans that seem empty and like they will never be fulfilled.  

So now what?!?

I wait. On the One whose plans for my life are beyond what I could dream or think up, whose timing is perfect, and really can fulfill all my deepest longings and desires.

I wait - doing what I know I’ve been called to do. I am to continue on in the pursuit of the most amazing relationship with my magnificent Creator. To learn and grow where I am. To help those around me develop into all that God has designed them to be. To know I have not been forgotten and He sees and knows my frustrations and disappointments.

“So roll up your sleeves, put your mind in gear, be totally ready to receive the gift that's coming when Jesus arrives. Don't lazily slip back into those old grooves of evil, doing just what you feel like doing. You didn't know any better then; you do now. As obedient children, let yourselves be pulled into a way of life shaped by God's life, a life energetic and blazing with holiness. God said, "I am holy; you be holy."

-1 Peter 1:13-16 The Message

“God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, His Spirit deeply and gently within us.”

Ephesians 3:20 The Message

“Because of the sacrifice of the Messiah, His blood poured out on the altar of the Cross, we're a free people—free of penalties and punishments chalked up by all our misdeeds. And not just barely free, either. Abundantly free! He thought of everything, provided for everything we could possibly need, letting us in on the plans He took such delight in making. He set it all out before us in Christ, a long-range plan in which everything would be brought together and summed up in Him, everything in deepest heaven, everything on planet earth. It's in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, He had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose He is working out in everything and everyone.”

-Ephesians 1:7-12 The Message